Manii MAnii Thnks to my Beloved Fruit Family and LEaders... my mood haf been like shit for the pass few days and it get worst n worst eachh day.... problems after problems.. Jocleyn, im not as strong as u tink i am... sorrie to disappoint all of you... all those encouraging words frm Ming Rong, Koon Yew, Chi Wen, Jocelyn, Jing Hong, Stella. Siok Mei, Shi Xiang and Rina..... im veri gratefull to all of you.. but still, my mood cant really go back to the usual me.. haha, i guess Shi Xiang, Jocelyn, Ming Rong and Chi wen knw how the normal me ish... ive lost connection wif God too.. Ming Rong, i ve reallie tried controlling my temper on them... its jus dat, they din storp they jus continues n continues even on Chinese NEw year lorhx... wth... my dammn mood.. soon, it will ruin everyone and everytink.. Hilda, im super duper sorrie to explode my temper on you.. yea, koon yew too.. last tym at msn, i also explode on him... if this carries on... i reallie dont knw wad to do... to leave church or not to leave? To run away or not to run away? I knw if i did all this, my Church darliigns wld get sad and everytink *datx wad Rina says* but i really cant stand them anymore.. at church i oso dont feel any Love frm my own CG... not anymore.. not like C2...i knw how my 2 darlings feel.. i oso do feel the same way as them... wheneva got events and all, we were the last to knw... how i wsh i was from C2... oh well, or rather i shud go back to my those kors and Jies? Sch problmes, Church promblems, the place whr im born wif them oso got prbolem.. wth wth wth... i hate it... its chinese new year n i shud be happie i knw.. but how to? haiis.. wadeva...i tink running away is the best...

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